To my loving husband...

To my Loving Husband,
I pray each night for strength to see the difference in duty and your love to me. I understand that when duty calls, you must go. I know in my heart you are doing your part and serving our country. I am so very proud of you! I also pray for the strength to carry on, and a task to do each day to fill the time you're away. I stand beside you through thick and thin, through all life will throw our way. Knowing that our special love will guide us in the right direction each and every day. When you aren't here to share my days and nights with me, my life is incomplete. For you are my heart and soul. Without you here, I merely exist from day to day. I sit and wait for your return so I can feel complete again. You are the keeper of my dreams, the one who holds my heart in your hands. You are the one I spend most of my time thinking about. I lie on the ground and stare into space, the stars start to move in the shape of your face. I see you there now, looking down at me with that cunning smile that I like to see. You say "close your eyes and tell me what you see." I see only two people just you and me. We are walking the shoreline of Hawaii, with our feet getting wet. The horizon turns pink, as the sun starts to set. We make love through the night, on that white sandy shore. Then I hold you, while thinking I could want nothing more. Oh I wish I could be in that one special place as I lie on the ground and stare into space. Your touch is with me always. It's burnt into my skin. Your voice is never silent. It's forever in my ears. Your arms always holding me, like the strength of angels wings. They support and protect me with the safety of true love. I can never repay you for the joy you bring to my life. However I can always be true, a true wife. I am a strong and loving wife, with a husband who had to go away. There are times I'm terrified for you, in away most never know. I bite my lip, and force a smile to get through the day. When we watched you pack your bags, my heart was breaking. But I am a very proud wife. You are the sun that always seems to brighten up our day. You are, our shining star above, perfect in every way, no matter where we are, or what we are doing. One thing that always stays with us, is how you love us in that special way. I Love You.

Who ever said naps were for babies?

I got to tell you something. I took a nap today. This was the most refreshing thing that I have done for myself in quite some time. I was watching television after work, relaxing and I dozed off. I woke up about an hour later to my phone telling me that I had a text. I think that there should be a law constituted in the great USA that says that we should all take a nap every afternoon to revitalize, rejuvinate and recover from our everyday lives.

Life has been too busy this last week. I have work, at school from 7:30 AM until 3:30 PM everyday M-F and then on Monday nights I am taking a class at EKU (Eastern Kentucky University). My first meeting of my class was on Monday, and it was really great. The class meets from 6PM until 8:45 PM. It is a long class but the professor is wonderful. He is funny and upbeat. I am taking Sociology 131. This is just into to Sociology. I think that I am really going to like it. I have homework this week to do something out of a social norm and write a short paper.....there goes my weekend :)

Willy has been writing to me on a daily basis. It is neat getting mail from him, real mail in the mailbox! He also emails every other day or so. I think that we have talked more in the last 5 weeks that the last 5 months!

Well, I am off. It is funny how I have so many chores and I am the only one here to do them. Alas, they have to be done so off I go.

I miss you....

I miss you.

I want you right before I close my eyes at night, where I can relive the memory of your lips pressed against mine. I want you first thing in the morning, when I'd like nothing more than to stretch and yawn and let my eyes fall on your sleeping form.

I miss you during the day; as I idle in traffic, while I'm staring at my laptop, when I find myself alone in the elevator, wishing I could steal a tiny kiss.

I miss you during meals, when you'd nag and natter away at me for choosing chocolate and desserts over meat and vegetables. You nag like an old lady, by the way. But it's ok, it's all right, I still love you anyway.

I miss you when the sun starts to set, as the skies turn into brilliant shades of pink and orange and purple. It reminds me of the countless times we spent just sitting back and admiring God's miracles to earth together....And what we had was one of those miracles. Love in its purest forms. Once upon a time, when the world still spun in the right direction on its axis. Yeah. Too long ago......

Why do I have to explain?

I went by the middle school today to see the custodian. Claira is watching his chinchilla this summer and I needed to find out if I can take Gizmo back to the school tomorrow. I don't want to have to worry about getting him back there after she leaves. So, we will go by in the AM and take Gizmo in and set his cage back up.

While at the school it came up that Claira is going to be moving to Washington to be with my parents. I don't know why I have to explain this to everyone. Why does everyone have this interest in what is going on. I realize that people are naturally curious, but geeze! I am tired of explaining.

I am just glad that school is starting on Wednesday so that I can get my mind off things and get back on track. I think that I will keep working with the basketball team if I can and maybe work on one of the clubs. It will be nice to have a little free time to do the things that I want to do, not that I won't miss Claira....it is going to be such a change.

Well, have to run, but I need to remember that sometimes it is nicer to let people keep things to themselves, I see first hand now how ackward it feels to be on display and have to explain things...

Summer is nearly over....

It is nice that I work for the school system. Who would have ever thought that I would get a summer off again? I thought that summers were for teenagers, children and stay at home moms, who by the way NEVER get any time off so to think that they actully get a summer is a big laugh! I love the fact that I had this summer off. It was nice to relax after a long year of listening to 11-15 year olds talk out of their behinds, and walk around with their pants hanging down around their ankles, or worse their shirts revealing their mid-sections. I realize that they are kids and the saying is "kids will be kids", but aren't we allowing them to act the way that they are acting? I know that everyday before Claira walked out the door to go to school I looked at what she was wearing to make sure that it was appropriate, and told her that if I heard any complaints from any teachers about her attitude there would be extra choors when she got home.....it worked for a while....



Summer has gone by too fast though, I will be going back to work on Monday and the kids will arrive on Wednesday. I am really excited about my classroom this year. I think that we will have a great group of kids to work with and I hope that they will really love being there with us all day. It is going to be the beginning of another adventure.


I have really had a rough summer though, things have not gone the way that I thought they were going to go. Willy is gone, in Iraq and I have no idea when he will be home. Claira has decided that she does not like living here with me and after many weeks of tears and talks we have decided that the best thing for her right now is going to be for her to go and live with my parents in Washington State. I am not that happy about this decision, but if it is what is going to make her happy than this is what I want for her. All I have ever wanted for Claira was to be happy. Isn't that what all parents want for their children?


So, Friday is the day. I will drive her to Atlanta to fly to Seattle. She leaves at 935 at night and will be in Sea-Tac a little after midnight. I was thinking that I would turn right around and drive home but a sweet womand that I work with is going to drive down there with me so that I will not be alone, I am so glad. I think that the drive home is going to be hell......


So my world is upside down....My husband left (for a job) and my daughter is leaving because she needs to be with her grandmother. My parents were good parents. I turned out ok. They have been married like 36 years!!! That is unheard of in todays society! I love them very much and I am happy to call them MINE!


Someone said it takes a village to raise a child, I guess in my case it takes an entire family. I am a lucky woman to have such a wonderful and supportive family.

Well, I am going to stop feeling sorry for myself now and get off my butt!